New Outlook, New Life

Hello

This is my first of (hopefully!) many ramblings regarding most of my passions and a vehicle for projecting these thoughts and views into a palpable framework. I suppose an introduction is in order. My name is Kristopher Bernard. I am an experimental electronic musician, poet, actor, scientist, martial artist, and a student of the multiverse. I am 36 years old and am currently residing in chrysalis form in Saugerties, NY, the place where I grew up, although it is not the place I was born. That would be Salem, Massachusetts, where the details of my past are too extensive to cover here (although that will most likely be addressed in future posts!)

Over the past year I have seen my life collapse into a singularity and bloom into a flower of complex beauty. Things have been strange, melancholic, anxious, joyous, and at times outright beautiful. A cyclothymic oscillation that has left me paralyzed and bewildered at times, but ultimately showing me the true being that resides within me. I suppose this is the journey of life and each obstacle that presents itself creates new pathways to explore, some leading to dead ends, while others lead to the infinite. I have found that it is through these varied times that the true essence of who I am shows itself, whether it is a face I find admirable, or one that rears its malformed head. It is through this that come two choices: A) Let these troubles destroy you and revel in the negative energy vacuum or B) Let these troubles make you stronger by allowing them into your life and accepting, propagating growth and spiritual renewal.

I have always been a spiritual person, but I also have been spiritually lost for some time. I do not like to compartmentalize myself by adhering to one set of spiritual beliefs or dogma, but I prefer a mongrels mix of many religions. I suppose I consider myself a born again pagan, considering that most of my views coincide with many European practices from antiquity. I also combine Asian elements as well and from these varied sources I subtract the useless drivel that seems to permeate all organized practices and refine them into something that makes sense to me. In my youth I substituted the void with psychedelic drugs, simply trying to find my way, but now I realize that it is through the things I love, the things that bring me true joy, that bring me closer to the multiverse that resides within us all.

I hope to provide my mind a positive service by posting these thoughts and hope to continue doing so in the future, tackling all the things in this amazingly beautiful and complex world we exist in.

- :K